Some days, like today, I worry that I won’t be good enough to make this business work.
Have you ever felt this way? That you have a passion? A deep desire to make a difference in the world AND at your core you know you are meant to share it…
But then doubt creeps in, my saboteur creeps in and tells me that I don’t have what it takes. SIGH. Although she is such a bitch and I want to tell her to fuck off there is a part of me that listens to her.
What IF I can’t do this? What if she is right? What if I can’t’ express to people why I want to work with them? How I think I can help them…. What if I… FAIL??
It is with those words that I hear myself say, so what? So what if you try this and you fail. Wouldn’t It be worse if you just didn’t do it? Isn’t not trying far worse than failing?
When I was 44 years old I decided to compete in my first every Body Building Competition. Most women retire at that age. My WHY was very strong though. I had told my kids that they could accomplish ANYTHING they wanted to if they:
My WHY was so strong that it helped me overcome all of my fears. Fear of losing my husband because he would be jealous, fear of looking silly on stage at my age, fear of not achieving goal, (AKA failing), fear of being judged by my father, fear of what people would say.
In the midst of fear I hear myself say… so what? So what if you try this and it doesn’t work out? In the midst of the fear I draw myself tall and breath deep. I remember my why.
I have a message inside of me that I want other women to hear. At our core we grow up with ‘you are not good enough’. It’s nobody’s ‘fault’ it just is.
YOU at your core ARE WORTHY.